once a girl who is laughing non-stop with her friends, laughing at something which is not even funny. a girl whom thinks that she found her life-long friends, her 'BFFs'. surprisingly, which came out that they are just people who misplaced other people's trust. lost her smile, lost her long lasting laughter. people to her, are just someone to be with just to pass time with. touching the matter on trust is so forbidden for her. no idea how to face the matter, so all she did was to run away from the fact. running away to the place where no one knows what had happened. the place where it had no memories of the fact that had happened. wanted to forget the things that had happened, but memories are forever will be there not forgotten and not erased. maybe they could be a lesson for me. but would i ever learn from these lessons? i wonder. never mind. just push it aside of my mind for right now. i should move on with my life first.
talking about moving on, i thought about what am i suppose to do after i graduate. working outside for a random company as a logistics? would that work? will that last me for long? what can i apply what i learn to the company? i thought. so i decided to work damn hard for the grades! to just apply the course i want if i get the chance to the university. or at least to show my family that i am not stupid. i AM trying to POSITIVE, alright? trying so hard that i am stress till that i wish to cry out so loud. but whom can i turn to? who can i talk to? i cant face my family crying and telling them how sad i am, or how stress i am. cause i dont talk to them about all these kinds of stuff. i dont want them to worry about me. so i just shuddup in front of them. and just be a happy gurl who likes to goes to school and enjoy studying. but i think they knew what i am up to. =X friends then? whom can i trust? people whom tell me that i can trust them in the end misplace my trust. should i give them a chance? or rather a chance of possibility to get myself hurt once more. actually, frankly to me, matters that had happened will always have a crack there. so no matter how much u did after that, it would not make the crack there disappear. maybe this sounds bad, or rather sad or whatever, but this is what i believed in. so, always think of the consequences(reminding myself of it too). people do make mistakes, but how serious the mistakes they made an impact on the person plays a part too. thats what i think. i think its enough for today. a bit tired of talking all these. and i think i should talk about yesterday.
yesterday i went to vivo to take my paycheck, so i asked YenLeng,Weiliang and Tim along. but Tim is able to meet us after 6 cause he need to work. so i went along with the rest first, we went to take pay check at swenson and Mdm Glenn make fun of me. =( say i need to pay 20 bucks just to take the cheque. and Sir Asra also played along. he more fierce, he wants the whole cheque. LOL. was quite happy to see the people there. although i dont work there anymore, but memories there is fun. =)) then we went to ate Yoshinoya. ate my usual meal there, Chicken Teriyaki. Weiliang treat us drinks! cause he is LATE! yeap. then we went walking around, then went to the place where YenLeng work during the holidays. then we went to the pet safari.(i think) saw the puppies!! dammn cute!! okie!!! if i had my own house, i am so going to rear a pet! XD okie. back to the topic. we had no idea what to do, so it is either go to Sentosa or the movies. in the end, its the movies that we went. cause someone dint want to go Sentosa, say very hot. will die de. =_= we watched the Bucket List. it was draggy, im almost dozing off in the middle of the movies, but it was quite touching at the end of the movies. ='(( i cried. so sad!!!! =(( i wanted to have a Bucket List too!! =X say as if i am dying soon. keke then after the movies, Weiling went off, so left me and YenLeng to shop around while waiting for Tim. we went to Sushi Tei to eat. the food is nice, and i dint ate much of the raw food. but i saw Tim and YenLeng enjoying them. and Tim treat us lots. =)) thanks sister! =D yeah, hes the sister of the day! then after that we all took bus home, i spent my time sleeping on the bus. damn shagged after the day. but was funn. XD
