a day to rot at home.
rotting percentage 100+++%
i just dread to rot at home.
but there seems no where to go.
expect the beach. ^^
hopefully can go by this week.
hmm..yap. remember what you say hor. =P
dreamt of you last night.
such a amazing dream! i cant even believe that i dreamt of that!!
i was thinking that i had already gone bonkers.
i still wanted that to happen. but will that happen?
the things that i saw tells me that all those wont be happening.
but yet i hope all those would happen.
what should i do?
when you think too much, sleep. then you wont think that much.
that really helps. really. the sadness, anger u felt before you slpt.
would be gone after you woke up.
Do you know that I like you?
DUmbass!! do i have to say it right infront of your face?!
today is Saturday!! Weekend!!
haas. went to City Hall
i chose that place, randomly chose that place.
haas. then when i halfway to City hall. sms the rest.
1 is going to leave house, 1 is on her way, and the other idiot just woke up!!
dots. then i just went to a corner to sit down when i reached City Hall.
got 1 auntie approached me to borrow hp to call her daughter.
then i ask her use earpiece, as i still abit scare scare got people snatch hp.
haas. then winnie reached liao.
something came into mind. and i did stunt. i just went stoning.
then yang reached also. so he chatted with winnie. while i stone.
seriously, everything they say just went passed my mind.
then dory came to met us.
i practically dao everyone lar.
wasnt really in the mood to do anything.
just wished i was invisible.
but later on, better lar. things started to leave my mind.
then went to walk walk. play play. chat chat. take photos.
later on, ah zhou and hm that couple came to meet us.
then we were singing the never ending song until they met us.
we sang 32 times!!! omg..can see how fast they were.
lolx. then they saw us singing then they walked away. idiot!
haas. then we stopped singing.
ah zhou like want to buy flip flops.
but like no nice 1s. then we went down to the 1st level.
there got a few big circles on the ground.
then the guys ask us to stand in the circles while they took photos.
lolx. then we just stand there pose pose, play play.
then we did dumb things. haas. but it was quite fun.
managed to have some quality fun time.
after doing all these stuff, we walked to dhoby ghout the Fish & Co.
people are just aiming at my PPP. [poor pathetic pimple.]
haas. nvm..!!! i tolerate!! let u all suan.
walked over there have to wait. then we just took photos at the LOVE sign there.
had our rhythm game. i just dont have sense of rhythm and i sucks at it!!!
haas. look stupid at that moment. T_T
then that idiot sotong just bang my head onto dorys head. as she was lying on my shoulder.
my poor ear..so innocent. haas. nvm..next time u get it from me!!
went to makan. wah. damn full sia.
haix. then heard something. abit bu shuang.
but. haas. forget it man. just pretend nothings wrong.
then all went home. i abit tired. so nv take the train with the rest to marina bay.
im hurt by what you said.
but you didnt realised. never mind.
maybe this is what you should not know about.
did you meant what you said?
should i just let it go?
what should i do?
im crying. but do you know?
what should i do to make you realise my presence?
[keeping feelings within me]
WHOOpeddooo~~
im back!!
yesterday had meeting. omg.
its like everything just BOM on me loe.
got alot of things to do!! omg!!
we lack of time!!!! haix..so have to get things done as soon as possible loe.
then i got a huge headache after the meeting.
its like im going to die!!!
then walked to sports complex more jia lat.
sit in ahad's office the sofa there.
then move in to sick bay. to lie down on the bed.
the bed not bad lar. is those patient bed loe. lolx.
the room cold lar. wearing a jacket also cold loe.
then yang peii me in the sick bay. he doing his Rj,
cracking his brain. haas. the question a bit dots lar. ask him to make up a problem statement.
lolx nvm. then he play his music while i sleep.
wahh!! then can hear dory they all from the office lar.
shouting and blasting the music. faint!!
then that ahad also lar!!! keep going in and out of the office. the door bom like no 1 biz!!
make me so uncomfortable.!! somemore ask me rest at sickbay.
while he create noise pollution!! haas. =X
then 9 plus they do finish liao. then they asked us to pack up.
we left. ahad sent me home. ya. right below the block.
after i did my rj, i bathed and just went to slp.
damn tired.
today, problem statement is about venn diagram.
hmm...can say easy after understanding. but difficult when u dont understand the
addictive rule. yes! the addictive rule hor know liao seems quite fun. lolx.
the faci at first abit demanding lar, then dont quite like.
but her method of teaching is so much better!!
and actually we really learnt through that method.
hope she would be our faci for the module.
although its a bit stress. okie not abit. quite alot.
haas. but its some how okie.
then after class went to the class beside yang and mookie's class to watch movie.
wasnt really watching. was rather busy spamming mails and replying peoples' questions
then finished everything, watched the movie. damn blur and bored.
so i just sat down there stone. then slpt.
until yang, zhen yuan, raymond and hong came.
then we all went off to makan.
went KFC to makan. some things happen.
dont wish to elaborate. but things are fine lar.
actually going home de. but last minute. went to see winnie's student.
so went to woodlands CC to see the students.
see them sparring, training .
seems so zai!! haas. got a cute girl girl, her eyes big big..
Geee. then watched until 9 plus. went to take bus.
wah..the bus hor. damn FREAKING cold lar!
breathe hor got fog come out de loe. can see how cold it is?!
SBS!! lolx.. soon got home liao. throat still hurts. sad.
can you please kindly tell me what u thinking?
haix. i tired of playing your guessing games.
>.< things u did, are quite different at times.
short term person you are. =/
what should i do? go ahead with it? or forget it?
How i wish That was You.
there is no lesson today
but i still went to school to have lunch with the rest.
after lunch, went to the library to slack.
while winnie is grumbling about her $300+ and studying
how can she study like that? faints.
i saw ah gong, then asked him into the room.
he came to reformat his laptop. seems that his laptop kana virus.
sad case~ dont sad.. i give u songs. haas.
soon, hm came. she left class early.
then ah gong need to go off to do something.
peck then appeared. lolx.
after awhile, she went off with mookie to get her laptop back.
the rest just stayed in the room to watch Ong Bak?
is that the show? haas. think so.
so sad lar!!! the elephant!!! >.<
i nv cried, just got some tears nia.
got a security guard came in and confiscated the poker cards.
teddy hong and zhen yuan was playing with it mar.
then she say cannot use the projector except its for studying or with facilitator.
dumb loe. then put there for what?! no 1 use we use loe.
we got pay money for all these facilities de hor. idiot!
somemore ask us go read up the handbook loe.
yar. if we have time, we would do more useful things other than studying the student handbook!
forget it. then we left the library, theres lightning.
its such a chore to walk to causeway sia.
then heard a story, a girl standing in the middle of the field.
it was raining and theres lightning.
then she kana struck, cause shes wearing a wire bra. -_-
the lightning cause her heartbeat to stop 5 secs and she died.
story adapted by yang.
so what is the morale of the story? dont know? ask him. =_=
we went to food court to eat.
dory and i bought chao guo tiao to makan.
she want to save money, while i want to eat.
so we share loe. then eat liao chat awhile
then go home loe. nth much also.
im just bored. so prevent myself from thinking too much again.
is to do anything. anything to keep my mind working to stop thinking nonsense.
haas. nonsensical right?
wahahas...going to do other things liao..bye!!
whoopeedoo~~
i got a song from a friend,
爱转角
我伪装着,不露痕迹的
想在你身边,静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车.往前行进着
某个路口.爱在等着
你往前走.不回头看了
记忆的笑脸.缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得.让你孤单单的
我爱你的.心牵挂着
一直想跟你说.幸福不再溜走
在下一个路口幸福哭着说
心不再拼命跺.不去害怕结果
下个路口你会看见爱.有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁.是否不让你流泪
爱转角以后的街.能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁.是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解.让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪.不让你掉眼泪
现在永远.你就是我.就是我的美
心不再拼命跺.不去害怕结果
假设有个以后.你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口.你会看见爱.有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁.是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街.能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁.是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解.让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪.不让你掉眼泪
现在永远.你就是我.就是我的美
爱转角遇见了谁.是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街.能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁.是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作陪.让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪.不让你掉眼泪
现在永远.你就是我.就是我的美
like this song. ^^
whoopeedo~~
slp early yesterday. cause got sore throat
no 1 to chat to. cause everyone seems not in the mood.
so i shall just shuud up.
watch 1 episode of Goong then went to bed.
woke up around 7am. just slpt through.
then had a quick but clean bath.
slowly walked to the mrt station.
cause i know i wont be the last to reach.
i reached mrt station, dory smsed me
peii me chat. then winnie smsed me that she not joining cause she just woked up.
haas. then soon dory reached. then yang reached.
and got 1 bloddy indian guy!! KNS!! stand right beside me to smoke! i was freaking pissed!!
just feel like slapping him upside down left right left!!
then i moved away, then got another indian guy walked to the right side of the field to spit!!
WOW!! that shows how CONSIDERATE singaporeans are...
talking about cleaniness and health. doesnt seems to have any use at all.
pissed me off early in the morning. shitty starting.
then walked to school, to meet peck leng and mookie..the lovey dovey couples.
they went early to school to loan laptops.
walked to W4 to wait for them as well as eat our breakfast.
ate hotdog for breakfast. lolx
had a sucky but easy problem statement.
just dont like the faci. damn naggy!!!! any questions?! omg..!!
she said that a million times!!!
haix.. then quite stress during a part. cause i dont know what to do.
and im quite confused about what they are trying to do.
but ah gong helped me quite a bunch!! thanks ah gong!! treat u drink coffee..on thurs.
after sch, i went to the booth.
as usual, im the first. lolx.
then winnie came by, cause she was freezing cold.
also dont know how to ask me take jacket to her!! haix..
angry and sayang her at the same time.
shes too tired to argue with me. then forget it. both kept quiet.
then she sit on the floor lie on my knee to slp as im sitting on a chair.
soon, more and more people come liao. then my throat pain like hell..
haix. but still need to talk. reminds me of TIBO times.
but this time no pay take de. lolx..
after SLA ends, packed everything up, then went to the store.
went for dinner after that. went to macs.
yar. smart me. eating macs despite sore throat.
thats so helping.
and its killing me now.!!! T_T
after eating. went to take bus home.
happening. are those true? >.<
how i wished they were true.
There’s no limit to learn unless you limit yourselves to learning.
this is the quote that i found in some file while browsing.
cause the stupid internet damn unstable.
then i bo liao go browse the archery folder.
thats motivating. haas at least to me?
lolx.
found someone abit weird.
but just have to remember I F S.
haas. i think just the both of us know ba. or more?
who knows?
had been slping the whole day. then wake up watch tv.
then too sian. go back to slp again.
but the weather damn hot!!
sweat lar. then keep waking up after dozing off awhile.
irritating. >o<
got a call from mum, ask me go 85 there makan dinner.
i bath liao call my bro wake up. then we went over.
went there eat rice with soup nia. the rest like not appetizing.
so never eat much.
then took uncle's car to woodlands.
nothing much happen today lar..
today is just a slack day, dont even know how to spend my sundays.
lolx. so sort of think abit here and there.
but it seems that i think too much again.
Gee. well thats me..
lolx.. i want that to happen again. but will it?
>.< waiting...............
WhooPee!!!!
today woke up by a stupid sms sent by yang.
7.26!!!! im still freaking slping lar!
my alarm haven ring sia...
then went back to slp for awhile.
woke up liao saw my dad.
he told me his stomach not feeling well. then i asked him.
but he dont want to say anything! dumb. nvm. his check up date coming soon.
haas. then went to bath. then prepare liao then rush out liao.
so late liao, peck leng nv sms me. so i think she wouldnt be coming ba.
on the bus, at about 8 plus ar, received a msg from yang say that he reach liao.
-_- so early for what?! we meeting at 9am sia.
haas..hes too dumb lar. then reach liao go mac find him. see him slping.
then raymond, zhen yuan teddy khai winnie one by one come.
haas. then went up to mrt station there to wait for dory and hm.
went to kopitiam to eat our breakfast.
eat until 10 then we walked to school.
reach the sports complex liao. took all the things stuff out.
and started spraying, drawing, coloring, pasting.
doing whatever we were supposed to do lar.
do until dont know what time. we ordered canadian pizza to makan.
i was busy coloring the protest board. but my brush spoil..
so i guess its time for me to eat ba. lolx
then went to wash my hands, take the pizza and eat.
i ate 2. like so greedy hor. but is nobody want to eat like that loe.
=X haas. then i slowly eat while i see the rest playing soccer. yes!
where we were painting!!
lolx. i ate liao then i started work. cause i dont want to play soccer.
i scare i slip and fell. cause i had been hurting myself these few days.
then i sat there and told them i trust them!! not to hit me.
so while i was painting halfway, a ball flew towards me and hit my right cheek!
AHAD!!!! yes! its him..the culprit!
lolx. but nvm lar.
see him help us SOSOSOSOSO much!!
thats nothing lar. haas
then they stopped playing and get to work liao.
we continued until very late!
>.< until 8pm!!
we packed and put the board together.
Phewww..~~ lucky we finished it! just for the decorating nia.
^^ was happy.
then waited for ahad, then we went for dinner!!!
yes. he drove!! wahaha!! so shiok!!
sat in his car, open the window!! the WIND!!!
damn freaking shiok sia!! i like the feeling.
its ssooooo NICE!!
went to sembawang. dont know what lane lar.
what "not straight" sembawang.
lolx. the "not straight" is malay word.
order nasi briyani, lentong(bone marrow) nasi goreng mee soto noodles chicken wings fries
yar. thats so much food! lolx. didnt managed to finish all but yar we ate quite alot.
dory kept kana own by ahad sia. LOL
so funny!! and its winnie and yang first time eating the bone marrow.
haas. ahad teach they all eat ar. damn funny. lolx.
then when we were done, saw a summon guy past by.
the 1 who always give summon de lar.
lolx. ahad kana sia. >..< 3 points deducted!! Sorry Ahad~!!
we had a great time sia!! lolx. its so fun lar.
ahad is such a nice guy, give us drinks, help us print things,find things. spray things.
omg!! such a resourceful guy..lolx..
anyways, thanks Ahad! and we did a great job in doing the protest board and everything else!
^^ today is a tired yet happy day!!!!
things that you did are always so surprising.
never expected that. but still.. ^^
Inhale* Exhale*
whoopeedo!!
today class is damn slack!!!
inventory management! haas. hope its just stays as easy always.
went back to class, just went randomly surf the net.
and i got shows from classmates.
haas. GoongS. Seven was acting in that show.
got time then i watch loe. lolx.
then koop pursuit of happyness also.
then presentation ended quite early.
fac was saying that there were people who are not paying attention.
lolx. it cant be me. as im presenting. >.<
but which means we didnt get their attention.
dont know is good or bad sia. -_-
then was slacking in the class watching the GoongS.
cause the rest like haven finish like that.
then winnie came and find me. -_-
thought she went to north pole loe.
come my class so long meh?!
then it was already 4.25pm.
we were meeting at 4.30pm
haas. smart ar? lolx.
then reach there. not all the people were there.
then switch to a bigger space behind.
soon, talking about the SLA thing.
helping and stuff. gotta help out in decoration tmr.
we got our Archery booth at Agora Hall 4. right at the corner.
sad sia. but at least we got a booth. should be grateful.^^
after talking about SLA, talked about committee.
Xiong is the president.
Winnie is the Vice-President.
Me is the secretary.
Dory is the Treasurer.
and Raymond and Zhen Yuan is the logistics.
logistics -ist = Logic . Just use logic think can le. adapted by someone.
haas. crapster. -_-
im sorry for the hurt that i caused you.
we end up hurting each other just because we dont want to hurt each other.
how amusing that can be.
the truth may hurts. but the lies u made hurts as well.
might as well just speak the truth.
too lazy to get online yesterday night.
so spent my night lying on the comfy sofa to slack.
was watching taiwan variety show.
practically spent my hours watching the television.
then watched CSI. the hollywood homocide.
not bad lar. but my idiotic brother switched the channel.
damn him. had to switched the channel.
then forget it.
things cropped up and i felt so unwell.
so went back to my room. lie on my bed.
things got worse, and i stopped all the conversations that i had.
im becoming more and more unlike me.
i mean the old me. i'm becoming more and more selfish. a stupid dumb fool.
haix. gotta let things go. "na de qi fang de xia" gotta learn from this.
heart broke into pieces again.
Angelynn!! just let it go!!
it doesnt matter that much!! okie?! free it from your hand!
then this morning went to mac to have breakfast.
was late for lesson. lucky the philip haven start the class yet.
todays class was quite slack. we all just chiong the ppt then went for lunch.
then after that slack again. -_-
hate that. cause it means i got time to think about stupid stuff.
P.S: ah zhou, ur imagination too creative liao.
dont think too much ar. later go crazy then u know. haas
im feeling terrible.
you asked me if im alright.
im not alright. but i dont have the courage to tell u that im not okie.
things had already happen till like this.
maybe its my fault. that i brought this up upon myself.
no. not only myself. but to you too.
all these nonsensical thoughts just came up.
you deprived yourself from that chance.
and you asked me to help you.
have you ever thought of my feelings?
the feeling of hurting you.
Do you know that i dont wish to see you hurt like you dont wish to see me hurt.
and your asking me to help u.
how funny is it.
different kind of thoughts just came up randomly.
its like breaking a heart. and then you came to me and say sorry.
and tried to piece it back.
stop saying sorry. it cant make the cracks go away or disappear.
im supposed to pretend nothing happen.
but i couldnt.
there are too many thoughts and thinkings in my mind.
for once. i wished i never know anyone.
people are selfish dont they?
you could say that im very selfish.
as i just want myself to be happy.
yesterday night is a torment for me.
real torment.
i dont even know how to face this torment.
as its too much for me to take.
all those talking make no sense to me after i reviewed them.
as no 1 is listening.
who am i talking to? myself?
of course it makes no sense if no 1 is listening.
lost trust. almost lost everything.
i dont know how to trust people once more.
i had no 1 to talk to.
i fell down again.
will i stand up this time?
who knows.....
deeply hurt.
mind in a whirl.
was screaming at someone dear to me.
im sorry.
i seems to gone bonkers.
cursing and swearing like its the end of the world.
its been long that i had been cursing and swearing.
sort of relieved.
but yet.
its weird for me to react so big after i told her that.
it isnt normal aint it.
but the feeling is weird. just unable to tolerate.
and i had been swearing at myself. o.O
dumb me eh.
didnt slp until very late.
6am woke up to wake yang up to meet later for breakfast. . but went back to slp.
but my stupid alarm never snooze!!!
make me wake up at 6.50am!!
im supposed to call at 6.15am!!!
haix. then called. no 1 picked up. thought he woke up to bath le.
but NO. hes still slping!! that pig!!! after i bath i called again. praying he woke up le.
unfortunately. he just woke up. -_-
i failed! to wake him up on time for breakfast! nevermind. thursday try.
haas. promised something~ so must do it. >.<
the thing hope its going on fine. nvm shall discuss it later. when everyone settle down liao.
^^ anyways. im going to have lunch!!~~
first day of school.
as usual went to school with laptop and stuff.
but this year, im year 2 le.
not as scared as the other time when i first entered my first class.
felt weird instead. looking at the new faces in the class.
things haven changed.
having the FMT, first breakout.
then second meeting then breakout.
then went to the sports hall to get things.
position of people are different.
mookie and peck, ah zhou and hm are all together.
haas. although know that they were together, but still, maybe not used to it ba.
guess it still takes time to digest and get used to it?
today didnt join them for lunch.
after taking things, went back to my class le.
didnt expect my team mates to settle liao.
i got nothing to contribute sia. got a freaking hour to spend.
guess i will blog then understand the stupid cost decision thing.
yesterday was also a freaking boring day for me.
woke up. wash up. read book. then watched television.
then finally decided to go out.
went out to the beach.
sent out a few sms, then i off my phone.
smart move eh? long time never off my phone liao.
watched the waves. went to walk and found shells.
reminded of something. i shall use 1 word to describe. pathetic.
yeap yeap. then took a bus out of there. went home.
had a bath. slack my way through. until 9pm then took a bus to woodlands.
dont like to use laptop when im there. the connection sucks.
but no choice. still have to bear with it.
i asked winnie a few questions.
its making me even worse. i feel like tearing myself apart.
images keep appearing. things that i arent suppose to be so concerned.
i think things are abit weird. i sense alittle weird.
but i dont know what that weird is all about.
i wished to ask you. "are u willing to be the shoulder that is always for me to lean on?
the hand that is always willing to reach out for me?"
yeah. that is a wish. nevermind. let this be a dream for me then.
hopelessly falling into a pit.
when will u realise that im always there? Sigh~
Woot!!
we are done with all those 'coolies' jobs.
and those 'sai kung' jobs.
haas. sad until so sad like that.
but it was fun. particularly the last 2 days.
having lots of fun playing with masking tapes. scotchtapes.
and MUD in the field!! omg!
that sucks abit.
i lazy to say out all sia.
we went to sch late. and haas. ah Had nag abit. then asked us to pack out the bottles.
sian sia. we pack the goodies bags then now we have to unpack.
damn idiot sia. but nvm lar. unpack then unpack loe.
lolx. then after unpacking. we went up to move the platform down.
and something happened.
when we were moving the trolley into the lift with the platforms.
the god damn freaking platform slides and BUA my hand!!
and there goes my skin! pain sia!!
damn numb at that moment lar. hand shivering. T-T
but i still dont quite bother. i tolerate. then move the trolley to a corner.
then after that went to help take food to the collection area. but didnt do much.
cause all done by the rest liao.
then went to get plaster. Gary went to get and put antiseptic cream for me.
haas. Thanks Gary. ^^
then went to find the rest at the agora halls.
then keep walking here and there.
nothing to do. then went to ka jiao STA students. lolx.
then after awhile go do things liao.
pack the tables and chairs. haas. tiring but fun!
then soon we went for the talk. we damn disturbing sia.
we did the SAS cheer in the theater. lolx.
hmm...the movie was not bad. quite interesting.
there are parts where i doze off. but i still get the point. haas
then after the movie ended. it was still early.
we just camped outside the theater to slack. haas.
then yang teaching us the hakka dance.
damn funny lar. make us laugh non-stop.
then got a guy. came to demonstrate hakka!! woot! damn ZAI...
haas. the voice is damn loud lar.
soon, we went back to have our dinner and the party starts le!!
cool lar! then slack and slack in the briefing room.
continue start work loe. went to clean up the sports hall.
then dont know who start the face painting.
and we all got to do it on each other face.
we chased yang from the sports complex to the agora side there!
his stamina damn good!! gan bai xia fong.
then bua him liao. we continue to bua all the OSG people face!
haas. so fun!! alot of running here and there.
but another accident happened!
i grab wei lin. but got 1 case blocked me. and i fall. which causing her to fall!
and her elbow kana. BLED!! im sorry weilin!! >.<
didnt know she was hurt until some girl told me.
then went around finding her. but cant find her.
all the while i had been buaing my hand loe! T-T
pain pain. no 1 sayang.
then got things to do le. which is to set out to the muddy field and throw rubbish away.
like cleaners loe!! faint! but nvm..they better give us more CE points!!
do so much work!! haas.
then once again. i stepped onto chopstick sticking on the ground.
today bad friday. which is so not the day for me!
haas. eyes are closing le. SLEEP!! tmr still got bbq. so going to die!!
lolx..
whoopeedo~
was abit tired today.
so when doing stuff. wasnt that enthu.
but still managed to stay awake and continue to do stuff.
haas. in the morning as usual reach sch late.
after having our breakfast at the kopitiam.
theres me, peck, yang, winnie, dory, hm and teddy.
the rest meeting in school.
walk here walk there nothing to do sia.
nv do much work also. today slack quite alot.
haas. as normal, the rest are crapping alot. and playing with scotchtape.
it seems that dory had an accident with the scotchtape.
haas. poor dory.
today end quite early. and yet we didnt do much.
lolx. we got our T-shirt. cool!
then after de-brief, we went to meet up with ah zhou and went to have dinner.
hes going to take his contact lenses or something.
yar. so we went to Mac to eat. didnt bring money >.<
so borrow money from winnie. sad case.
then ate le. crapped while eating. haas routine lar.
then after eating, went out of causeway. ah zhou smoking.
theres 2 person dancing. and 1 person instructing. haas.
make the rest laugh lar. lolx..
then went over to talk to peck and ah zhou.
soon, all went home seperately le.
went to take bus. then reach peck house that bus stop.
alight le then walked back home.
woot!! the sky is damn dark. damn cool to walk. but there isnt much wind.
what a pity. along the way there isnt a single person.
only cars passing by nia. listen to my music.
actually wasnt concentrating on my songs.
in fact was thinking alot in my mind.
was thinking through. alot of things.
then reaching home le. decided not to think le.
tmr going to enjoy myself!! haas. the singing part.
but not quite the dancing part. lolx..
whoopedoope...
helping out for FOP ba..isit?
lolx..think so. woot!! going to have T-shirt.
wahaha!!
hmm...today did singing..lolx..
didnt realise RP has a school song..lolx..
a song that never ends. lolx..cool!!
then did a war cry!! lolx..
have to do the hakka thingy..so weird! damn weird..
then we had to learn how to dance the kuku dance..
idiot! dont wish to learn. damn dumb lar..
then after the dance. the facs asked for volenteers.
and all of us sabo yang.
haas. he went up and shout the war cry. damn funny lar. all keep laughing. wahaas.
then after that we went to have our lunch. today lunch not bad lar.
better than yesterdays.
today i quite quiet lar. never crap much either.
just doing what i need to do. and making myself busy.
then after doing all the packings and sticking of the signs for schools.
went back to have de-brief.
marked our attendance. then we took our leave.
tmr need to reach sch at 10.
after de-brief. went to sit down awhile. then after that went to causeway.
went to food court to eat. along the way the rest are singing the song.
haas. cute sehs. then i listen to my music..
throat feels weird. but still went to eat sambal chicken cutlet.
my soup is destroyed by some itchy butt hand. -_-
but it doesnt taste much different. so i cant be bothered.
then after that went for a walk. stayed at the vcd shop for quite some time.
soon, we left the shop and left causeway.
then went seperate ways with dory and hwee min.
mookie peck and me took 161 with yang.
i dont wish to go home early so..just take loe.
then after that reach sengkang le. yang bought smelly tofu.
my stomach already weird le. still ask me eat. but also nv eat finish.
after eating, took bus home. mookie sending peck home.
make me look so extra nia. so i just moved to another corner to sit.
haas. then alighted. thinking of walking home from peck house.
but on the way, my dad saw me. then he stopped his car. and called me.
then i board his car and went home.
my walk home!!!~~~ haix..nvm...theres tmr..!! haas..
heii heii...im baack to update my blog...
today is just a tired tired dayy...
masking tape...Zzzzz....
abit sick of it le.
had a bit of thinking when taking a small break while helping out.
thinking about myself.
whether its true or not.
i think im going to go bonkers sooner or later.
too much thinking le.
yar. bang my head on the wall. or just slap myself.
but i think i wont do those 2. but will do the other thing.
thats the 2nd time i heard that.
mere concern or what?
lolx. too dumb to understand.
nvm.. today papa bdae Happy bdae Papa! ^^
although always have arguements. but there were happy times too.
haas. i do remember okies?
hm..today winnie went to chalet.
but she did msg to ask about hows the helping going on.
just told her its tiring. haas. hope she enjoyed her chalet.
hmm..haven been blogging le....
so shall blog now ba..yesterday saw peck and mookie holding hands.
woot~~ congrats!! haas.
and we celebrated wan ting advanced birthday!!
haas..water bomb. flour bomb! wahaha. so cool lar.
cool is cool. but when holding wanting down. i kana quite a few..
sian..=_= haas..but nvm...get wet nia~~ was under the rain. so..haas..doesnt matter.
we lighted the candle on the chocolate cake. then after wanting blew out, we light it again.
lolx..cause we didnt have the relightable candles.
so manual de loe..haas. so fun lar..
OH ya..almost forgot the part..!! wanting was eating her cake.
then yang went to ka jiao her. =_= make her drop the cake on the floor and make it inedible.
so SMART. haas. then khai went to pick up the cake. EWW..so nua..then passed to hm i think.
then she went to bua on yang face. haas. for her revenge.
and yangs reaction is so funny and horrible!!! lolx..just kept on laughing..~~~
should have taken a photo. lolx..!! or rather video...~
following on is using 1.5L bottles to pour/splash on peps.
haas. i just sat there. want to pour pour loe. haas. im already soaked with water. lolx.
dont have the energy to chase people. haas.
then see people run here and there carrying the bottles. ready to splash anyone.
then dont know how people run de..slipper can spoil 2 times..~
then they cont playing..nth to do. then just help yang fixed his slippers loe.
thumb pain~~ >o<>o< then reach causeway point le. went foodcourt to eat. was seperated to 2 tables.
was quite quiet on my side. while the other side. haas. as usual noisy dory was there.
haas!!! then after eating went to bookshop cause wan ting wanted to go.
then all went..after that all went home. then yang and me went to take bus.
he peii me queue at 168 there.
hey there..~ cheer up..haas. and thanks for accompanying me. ^^
kaki got a new number le!! wee..can talk to him le..wahaha..happy.
but he like quite busy..haas...nvm...
recently got a song.like quite a bunch. Gee.
There's a new wind blowin' like I've never known. I'm breathin' deeper than I've ever done. And it sure feels good, to finally feel the way I do. I wanna love somebody, Love somebody like you. An' I'm lettin' go of all my lonely yesterdays. I've forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made. Now there's just one thing, the only thing I wanna do, mmm,mmm. I wanna love somebody, Love somebody like you. Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine, Shinin' down on me and you. When you put your arms around me, You let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do. I used to run in circles goin' no-where fast. I'd take, uh, one step forward and two steps back. Couldn't walk a straight line even if I wanted to, mmm, mmm. I wanna love somebody, Love somebody like you. Whoa here we go now! Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine, Shinin' down on me and you. When you put your arms around me, Well, baby there ain't nothing in this world I can't do. Sometimes it's hard for me to understand, But you're teachin' me to be a better man. I don't want to take this life for granted like I used to do, no,no. I wanna love somebody, Love somebody like you. I'm ready to love somebody, Love somebody like you. Oooh. An' I wanna love somebody, Love somebody like you, yeah. Oh yeah. Oh, I wanna be the man in the middle of the night, Shinin' like it's true. I wanna be the man that you run to whenever I call on you When everything that loved someone finally found it's way Wanna be a better man I see it in you yeah...
haas. this song abit cowboii..lolx.. but not bad lar..lolx..
i like the lyrics. especially the last part. ^^ something i wanted to tell someone.
feeling empty right now.
what reasons? i had no idea.
saw something today. but certainly i wish to hear from them.
haas. happy.^^
im sure im not feeling empty because of that.
but of another matter.
i hope its not happening.
definitely i dont wish it to happen.
"know what i want"?
i think i do. but its impossible to get it.
yeap. so i must refrain.
yes. refrain.
but i wonder if its too *******
i hope its not.
i just want it to be normal. but it seems that im not acting like 1!!!
omg..!! what the hell is happening to me..?!?!?!
arr......help..!! im feeling awful.
im weird!!!
*thinking in process*
okie..i sort of know why is that im feeling.
and this is something that someone say.
yar. but i dont wanna admit. yeap. NO WAY am i admitting.
control!! noo...not control.. hide!! yes.!! HIDE....
although it might be alittle suffering..but yar. think it would be worth it.
*exhale* >o<
nvm...shall leave it.
woke up early in the morning.
went to admiralty to get bball from winnie.
the took bus to sengkang.
cause we all going to yangs' house.
to have movie marathon. but most of us are not staying over.
only wanting winnie and dory are staying over.
alot of things happen. pillow fight. playing piano.
haas. i just can say that i keep washing the dishes today.
but okie lar. washing dishes is the only thing that i can help out.
haix...today is a good day to emo lei...sudden urge to go to beach.
maybe tmr i will be going. to throw stones.
i cant believe my eyes
this is happening to someone i love dearly.
tears are falling.
i didnt realise that this is happening to you.
dont wish to say much.
i just feel sad.
hopeless.useless that i cant do anything to help u or the others overcome.
there is training today.
first day of the week. Monday.
maybe planning to do something tmr.
but i wanted to go to beach. sudden urge to go there.
maybe just go there emo awhile.
see how tmr goes.
people are acting weird...
haix. how can i cheer them up?
maybe its their problem ba.
cant make it my problems.
cause i had my own. i had to solved mine before i can help others.
hmm...so i shall solve my problems first.
my parents are coming back.
so think will stop quarreling with my bro for the moment.
and i suppose i would have more freedom.
i said once. when im ready i would tell u.
but i dont know when will it be.
somethings happened.
i want a shoulder to lean on....
whose shoulder could let me lean on?
i really wished to cry.
do i have no rights at all?
maybe i dont have any.
i feel sad. the pain is there.
whatever i do. the pain still lingers there.
but do u know?
have u ever thought about what i think about the things u did?
maybe im not important at all ba.
have you ever appreciated me?
i really wonder. i felt really hopeless when i cant help u.
i approached u but u just leave me hanging there.
not pushing me away nor giving me a change to help u.
what do u want me to do?
all the things i did. was meant nth to u.
maybe thats the conclusion i can get.
*12* they are for u... nobody would ever knows what they meant.
the thing i gave u. is here with me. u had forgotten all about it.
im back to the space i had to myself. Only me.
no one could hurt me then...
i had this thinking. "since i want people to be happy. why not i disappear?
people might be happy without me"
