this is the song that is played in this post. its nice.
found it today. so decided to post it up. enjoy this is the lyrics. ^^

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
To afraid to hear the world's I'd always feel
Leavin' you with all the questions all these years

Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No, it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be?
no, this isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away,
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wandering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side?

wee wee~ update update all at one go!~~
today intend to wake up early to go sch zzz de
but hehes. keep on snoozing then woke up at 6.30
then reach the bus stop at 6.55, wait for the toopid bus until 7.05.
waste my time nia, lucky the bus still a bit empty when i board it.
if its full ar, i will be sure damn pek chek de. haas. but lucky lucky!!
then walked to sch, then saw kuan huat at the entrance of sch.
then walked together lorx. also catch up abit. haas. he got alot of lab sessions.
wahahax. lucky me dont have. muahahax. XD
got into class, and found out that i dint bring my laptop battery to sch.
smart me. =_=" then nvm loe. got charger can le..keke
faci today end first meeting early, so me and Apple decided to go makan first.
later go back class then chiong finish. muahahax. then first time eat sch breakfast set.
haas. the egg like got milk de smell, almost puke.
nvm. the following lyrics from a song called Never Let You Go. by Janice Wei Lan.

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.

My heart cant seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.

Though I told myself wont hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I wont
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know Id never let you go.

The way you left me on the train.
I dont know what to say.
I remember everything of that day

I cant believe wed never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself wont hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know Id never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I wont
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know Id never let you go.

this one nice song horx...haas. ^^ okie lar. i think thats all for today ba...
nowadays, im just so life-less. after school go home... >.<
but nvm lar, can rest also. wahahax. XD

woohoo!!
long long never update le worx!!
time to clear clear abit... hehes~!
hmm.. lets say about sunday?
sunday i went out in the afternoon.
went to bugis, Sim Lim
then went to orchard. eat ice cream! ^^
yumm yummy...~~~
then went to kembangan to meet Sarah before meeting the rest.
but who KNOWS! they pang seh us!! hMph! =/
then me and Sarah have to find our way to East Coast Park.
on our way there, we recalled the memories when we went to ECP during Sec days.
took the bus, it was different from before. the people are also different le.
we grew up le, time passes. this time, last time was 6 of us, but now its just 2 of us.
kinda sad. and we dint contact each other as often le except for the few.
soon, we reached ECP, then found out that our pit is right at the very other end.
zzzz we complained as we walked. lolx! it was fun though.
we talked, chatted, crapped. funx funx! some time for us to talk to each other about our lives.
walked, we walked, carried on walking.... FINALLY~!
saw someone familiar infront of us while eating ice-cream which we just bought nearby our pit.
its them...them..the guys who pang seh us!!
haas. =P niways, just saw the rest of the guys the other time.
but this time round, saw Wei Quan, Johnie and Telvin.
and that YEE XIAN KANG!!!!!!!! YOU WANT TO DIE ISIT?!
2 TIMES!!! U PANG SEH US 2 TIMES!!! U MIGHT AS WELL GO BANG WALL LAR!!!
*whuu* okie..continue my post. hehes. ^^
then we started to start the fire, but sadly we are poor fire starters.
haas. we spent an hour doing it. so im tired of waiting and sat down and drink water. =P
then i went to marinate the chicken wings. stunt right? last minute marinate the chicken wings.
i only ate marshmellow, sausages, sotong, crabmeat.
just never eat chicken wings. haas! too lazy to use hand eat. =P
then also never eat much. we just kept BBqing for the rest.
and we did that for quite long, and the guys finally paiseh liao, say let them BBq.
haas! funnie sia! say what let them have a chance to BBq. or something gentleman.
we just rested, and my eyes abit pain cause stand infront of the thingy, then got lot of smoke.
then got 1 moment i kept tearing non-stop. stupid Wee Kiat asked me not to cry.
want to smack him on his head liaox..
then the guys were just cooking and fooling around. carrying people to the "long kao".
want to drop people in there. haas. we were laughing like no 1 bis.
then they say got 1 ah pek there sleeping in the pavilion. say we disturb him.
wahahax! damn bustard! lolx..it was fun lar. the monkeys are still the same.
never change. still doing lots of stunts. and funny stuffs.
like putting the unused charcoal in the middle of the tracks. cause they dont want to take.
=_=" sometimes just cant stand them. and!!! Johnie and Telvin pangseh us when going home.
they ran home, dont know where. haas. then Wei Quan send Han Yang home.
walked quite a distance to the bus-stop.
somewhere near the place where i went for tution. haas. =P
im a dumb person, so need tution.. hehes.
then went home, bath went online! woot! so shiok and yet tiring!
thats all for the gathering. hehes.

then the nxt day is Monday!
wee! i never go for class again! =X not that i want! is my hp died on me.
no alarm. and i dont know whats wrong with it. on and off also cannot.
must take out the batt then can on back. zzz better not spoil.
if not i no money to buy new hp le.... then woke up in the morning, chatted in the MSN.
then went back for a nap. then woke up to go to school for training.
but i supposed it was a wrong idea to go for training.
go archery training, kena bullied de lorx...zzzz
juniors are included!! most of the time is them!!!
why am i so sad!!? and minnie say my life wasted sia?!!?!
why is my life wasted?!?! how?!!? T_T
haas. =P anyways, people enjoyed can le lar. just dont torture me!!! please!!!
dont massage me. dont tickle me. dont burst balloons. haas
then trained. 20,30,40,50m like that. i also checked my sighting le. wahaha.
*phew* lucky can sight. if not i dieee..~~~ cause the other time i forgot the sighting.
time for us to pack up and go home since the sky is dark when we trained until 7 plus.
the way to causeway point is too much for me. haas was laughing all the way!!!
almost non-stop. lolx! the stupid guys took some small stick and tickle ur ears.
idiots right?! haas. yeap they ARE!!! =P anyways, it was fun lar. haas
long time never laugh so long le. thanks for bringing joy by doing stupid stuffs eh, juniors!
haas! =) tmr theres selection for the juniors, must jia you worxx!!
and heard that Ivan Leow is going to quit le. cause of his shoulder injury, he cant shoot tmr.
zzzz. another junior gonexx~~ but hope the other juniors can do their best!!! ^^
this time round, just show what u had learnt through all those trainings that u all had been through. then u will have no regrets. must feel confidence. tell urself u can do it!!
self-motivate urself with the correct attitude!! then give it ur best shot! u guys can do it de!!! ^^

found a song.
quite long time ago.

Out of Reach

Verse 1
Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

Chorus
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Verse 2
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

Chorus
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Bridge
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

Chorus
And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

its nice right?
once, it spelled my feelings.
dint thought of this song when i felt that way.
but anyway, it goes by the song.
you'll be out of my mind. and u did. but in such a wrong way.
in a way, that i hated u. but whatever. doesnt matter.
just wanted to say goodbye to painful memories.
going to learn what ah gong taught me.
imagine you put those memories in a door right in ur heart.
and close the door. but i will add a few locks.
hopefully, i can do it. haas.

wanted to update Zi Yuan's bdae photos de.
but im practically too lazy.
so tmr ba. =P
we went to seoul garden and spent $29.50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
VOMIT BLOOD!!!
ate until i want to puke!
pay so much money somemore my stomach have to suffer.
zhen de shi mei shi zao shi zhuo.
haas. =P but everyone enjoyed can le lar.
esp. wk. he ate damn alot of lala and clam lar!
i see him eat also feel like puking for him.
lolx! but he so big of course can eat alot de lar.
and theres actually COFFEE chicken!!!
haas. i die also dont want to eat leii. hy ate and he blur blur realised its coffee.
hy is 1 sotong!! after he go take food, and returned to the table.
he could actually go to the wrong table. and he thinking where is his things.
LOL!! i laugh like mad sia! but only i see. no 1 knows. but i guess who read this post knows it.
wakaka. hy is sooosoooosooo blur!!~~

dont hurt me once again. please.

mooncake festival is coming soon.
recalled the times that i played with my neighbours and cousins below my block.
we lit up the lanterns, and we were so happy.
and the end of the day, we burn the lanterns. cause its paper lantern.
we were so contented with just simple things like that.
in primary sch, i enjoyed the same things as well.
it was until secondary sch, where everything for me went wrong.
i forgot the simple happiness that i once had.
also found out that when we grow up, we know more, we tend to want more.
theres no end for a greedy person.
just wondering if i would ever have the simple happiness back again.

people do forget.
people chose to forget.
people wants to forget.
people would forget.
so am i one of the people? =/

another song. Michelle Branch Goodbye to You

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

[Chorus]

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

[Chorus x2]

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

would i be able to forgive what u all did?
will i still treat like nth happen?
can i?
could i?
will i?
should i?
once again, thinking about all these things make my tears fall.
you are the once that make me laugh, make my life wonderful
why destroy the image,the respect, the love, the memories, the fun and laughter we all had?
you knew how to cheer me up.
u knew how to make me feel better.but why are u the one that hurt me so badly?
do u still remember what i had said?
do u still remember the promise we made?
the same promise we made 2 times?
i still remember that when u felt real down, u cried.
u cried real hard. i dint know what was going on. but i cried along with u.
thats how much i like u.
did u feel the same way?
have u ever felt that way?
i felt that i had never once entered ur life.
never once touched ur heart.
i always thought things for us would turn out great, fun
but i was hit badly.
i know that there are much more people who was hurt more than me.

i wanted all these to be a nightmare. i dont want to face the reality.
cause it really really hurts.
i felt like running away. from the reality.
what can i ask u to do?
what can i ask myself to do?
how should i pick myself up?
how to pick myself up and be strong?
thought u guys were my strength, my pillars. haix
thats too much to ask from u all.

some lyrics i got. Nothing last forever by Maroon 5. its nice. =)

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Chris Daughtry Over you ( i just picked some )

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.

<--- this is Zhen Yuan! the EVIL PIG! lolx..
i find that for him. suits him right!!? wahaha!! XD
<-- this is i drew de. wahaha..=X abit ugly but he say its cute.. *puke*
lolx.. anyway thanks ar..for concerning and talk to me..wahaha..

finally, i got some sleep after so long...3 days/ 4 days?
i dint go for the training. =X
was raining when i woke up, so felt lazy and tired to go to school.
no appetite, so just drank soya bean.
eyes felt uncomfortable. zzz got headache and my stomach is messing with me AGAIN!
hate that. went to toilet for 5 times!! in 2 hrs!!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
pathetic me. =((

heart. my empty heart. has once again had another locked.
initially, i thought it was unlocked.
but now, for defense...it got another locked locking my heart.
what can i do to stand up?
there are people who wont hurt me?
i want to believe that, i really want.
but i no longer want fantasy.
fantasy just hurts when it comes back to reality.
it only satisfies what u cant do, what u dont have in reality. just like dreams, wishes.
friends? what are they exactly?
never expect things to end up this way.
the feeling is like you bought something that u had been dreaming about, but after u bought it, it spoils.
if you were in my shoes, what would u feel?
dint like my life in my sec sch. and now, my poly life. i dont want to mess it up.
friends are everything to me.
and yet, i got disappointed with things that happened.
people say, not everything goes my way.
and i asked myself. then what things goes my way?
did anything goes my way?
i thought my happiness is there, but i found out its all fake, short term happiness.
"kong huan xi yi chang"
i lost trust, i lost hope, i lost myself.
stuck in this space.
people wants me to stand up, but im afraid....
really afraid....im shivering with fear, trembling with fear, insecure
i will be hurt once i stand up again.
if i knew that i would be hurt again, i chose not to stand up.
im stupid, i dont know how to differentiate lies from truth anymore.
i dont know if people are saying the truth or just telling me lies.
asking me to trust them when they are telling lies.
they never knew that they would hurt me this deep.
this pain. i guess i would never forget. ever. and never subsidised.
guess u all would still be happy even things like this happen to me.
i dont know how to trust u all once again, let alone face u all once again.

what did i do to deserve all these shit?
i had to go through this kind of things twice
and whats more is my friends lied to me
make a fool out of me
is it fun to see me being so stupid to believe u all?
i convince myself by telling myself many many times that its not true
its something that i think too much
but now, its the other way!!
u guys had been fooling me all these while!!
now i look in the mirror, i saw the girl
the girl is damn fucking stupid..
to rather trust other people than her own feelings
have u thought of my feelings?
when u made the decision to lied to me have u consider my feelings when i found out?
do i deserve to be hurt like this?
never thought that u would hurt me like that.
i had no more tears to cry. no more. couldnt cry anymore.
" not going to let that happen to me again" " would not say lies to hurt me"
all these are the lies that hurt me.
bet not only these ba.
i dont know how to differentiate the lies and the truth that u all say
i asked u all to be happy, u say u are. cause u are not the one being lied to.
of course u have no worries.
what should i do? what can i do?
get lost if u want to hurt me. FUCK OFF!!!

what is this?
people hurting me
me making people suffer
what is this?
i asked people..
am i stupid?
am i so easy cheated?
i asked myself...
do i deserve all these shit that hurts me?
trust u all?
i did..and what happened?!
misused of trust.
how?! am i going to stand up once again
being pushed down by the person i loved most.
if i am important to u all, why hurt me like that?
i told u, u all like the whole world to me.
i tell u..right now my world seems to be collapsing.
but who can i turn to?
theres 1 person who wants to rely on me..!!!!
i dont even have the strength to go back once again.
how can i let u rely on me?
WARY.....
leaving u all is a torment.
but right now is also a torment to me.
tears are falling..my heart aches alot..alot really alot alot...
but do u all understand what i am going through?
u all might think things are not so serious ba.
but it is to me.
thanks ivan...for listening to me..and talking to me..
thanks xiong...for talking to me..
winnie...u never did wrong by telling me all those things.
if u dont, things might be much worse for me.
and im sorry...i would not be able to let u lean on for now..
dont ask me how long will it be.
and sorry..to upset u and stuff...
i dont know how to face hubby...should i still say hubby? sobs
i dont know what to call..or say....tears nv stop flowing down...
when is the pain going to stop? how to make it stop?
how to not get hurt? im tired of getting hurt..really tired...
should i exist? can i disappear with all those pains?
are u all important to me still?
why do i still hurt so much when i think of u all?
why? why? why? im tired of crying..dont want to cry...but tears keep flowing...
i want to hate. but i cant bear to hate...
how can u all bear to hurt me like that? =(( really sad.... =((

long time never update le =)
had a long sleep after 2 days of "sleepless" nights
but the people downstairs renovate!!!
damn irritating!! got the drilling sound
zzzz...
then woke up about 3pm ba
forgotten all about the laptop matter le. keke
nvm lar. still got time until the sch reopens.

people had been asking me why i cant sleep during those 2 days
i had been feeling, will everything goes to the place where they were?
well, bet the answer would be somehow like...depends on you
do you want it to be to the place where they were..
but back to reality, i suppose there is some changes.
im not saying pessimistic things again, but its the fact.
just dont want to cover it with some philosophy =X
i would just say i have changed.
i would say that i would try my very best not to emo, but i have no idea whether i have found my old self back.
or i have changed to another new person. =)
i have come back, to your sides.
heard one song,
one phrase of the lyrics is this: 为了抢快乐搞得不快乐
maybe that was what happen to me.
for happiness, i had caused unhappiness.
that was past to me, a past for everyone. =)
i just want a simple life.
i dont know what you think, and i dont want to think.
i also dont know whether you all need my concern and care.
but if i see you all got probs, i will still offer my help and my care and concern.
WARY....have been complete. =)
the story....shall continues ba....

simple life...i just want that....*Star*

whats up with my life?
felt irritating sometimes
why has life become like that?
why must we always ending up having disagreements?
why has things changed for us?
what can i say other than fullstop?........................................................
words can be hurtful sometimes
what does "caring" exactly means?
caring for urself in terms of emotions
u feeling helpless, depressed
talk to someone.
what has it got to do with selfish?!
is talking to someone selfish too?!
i just dont get it.
u dont understand what i am trying to say do u?

updating in the middle of the night
couldnt sleep, neither do i want to talk or maybe there wasnt anyone to talk to
anything to talk about
nar....
dint went for training or went to Comex IT fair.
dint see Rozi, Winnie for 3 days? dint see Weiyang for 9 days?
somehow had forgotten how they looked like when i look through the pictures we had.
slowly observed how they actually looked like when they are beside me
and how they looked like in the pictures
haas. strange isnt it?
its just for a few days or a week or so, she could actually forgotten how her frens look like exactly
she had known them for a year and half
sad seh..~~ haas..feel sad for her frens.=X

nar..forgot about that ba.
now is to update the photos i took on Fri..hee!!
frankly speaking, im really glad i met them once again
remind me of the fun times throughout those painful days. i miss them esp..........

Us!! recalling happy times! ^^ (missing person: SK)

the Gurls! me,huien(yanling),jia hui =P

the Guys!! weijie,cunfeng,wk,irvin(ah pa)

stupid Guys!! taking their own sweet time to take photos! hee! but brings laughter!

the Gurls again!

the family Photo! top: jia hui, huien below:ah pa me

both me and jia hui is nu er~
and the other is ah pa and ah bu~
haas...XD

thinking..am i fit to......*

WELCOME! =D

feeL fRee tO rEad.
bUt if U aRe NOT HAPPY wiTh wAd i wRote
JUST LEAVE
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15 July

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