terrible day.
things start to get bad.
what had i been doing?
i wonder what i had been doing..
things had changed so much.
happy times we spent together become terrible memories in the future.
felt useless.
being such a person, should i live happily?
do i worth to be happy?
find myself worthless.
cant do anything right. cant do anything that makes a person happy.
cant get a conversation going on. cant control my stupid temper.
cant control my mood swings. cant get over the past.
im such a person. so if you dont want to get hurt by me, dont involved with me.
cause i such a person that hurts people, cause misery to people. =(
i am not a person that would bring people happiness.
my life is in a mess. i would just make the other person life miserable.
i want to help people. but i end up making life worse for them.
maybe im not worth anyone. not vice-versa.
people(2) who were close to me, went through a lot with me could lied to me so easily.
could i trust people once again? do i have the confidence to believe that, that kind of matter wont happen to me again?
but I'm trying. but no 1 sees that I'm trying. =(
i dont know what to feel. dont know how to react.
each time when i think i find myself happy, things happened.
cant i find happiness? do i not deserve it? T.T
useless me. =(
