Boozzzz..!!
first of all!! want to show the family tree that i made for hrs!
haas! nice right? hey, thanks ur da jie hor! and david, im not ur da jie! ur my 大哥! haas! =P
long time never wake up early to go and have dim sum with family le
and long time never go out with brother, so dragged myself up.
went to a different place to have dim sum.
then went to bugis buy my dad stuff. then went to orchard.
it was quite draggy, and my leg is breaking when is 6 plus.
we had been walking non-stop since the morning. zzzz
oh...then some gurl from DBS gave me this candy! hee! my fav. sweet during X'Mas. *slurp*
some sweet given by some random gurl.
mum gave it to me after attending some wedding dinner. ewww..its DARK chocolate!! >.<
cream i bought to treat myself! =D
this book i saw in Popular and bought it. 1 for me 1 for mum. =)
we went to Ding Tai Fung to have dinner.
woooo~ first time i went there, so was quite curious about the food there.
my bro say the food there is quite nice.
so i chose to eat the 肉丝蛋炒饭, well....it was SUPER DUPER nice!!!
the 蛋炒饭 smells damn nice!! and the 小笼包 is DUPER!!
im so going to bring people go there eat!! when we are able to go there eat..
haas. cause its quite ex too. worth it ba. hees! =D
then its time to go back, after a day of shopping and im damn tired. zzzzzzz
got back home, online then had a conference about the chalet thingy.
dont know what to say or comment, so diam diam loe.
then kena comment keep signing in and out machiam like i want like that.
then abit bu shuang. so even more diam. =X
maybe its just me being tired ba.
on the damn bus, thinking of weird things. damn irritating.
OHHHHHH!!! something i wanted so much to update!!
I SUAN MY BROTHER EARLY IN THE MORNING! XD
i called him to name his child "Organic" in future, so his child will be worth it. XD
so damn happy i got to suan him before he suan me!!! muahahahah!!!
kies lar...tts all ba. tired tired tired. but dont feel like sleeping~
someone coax me to sleep, *plspls* =/
in my room, with my room closed.
hearing the voices of parents quarrelling.
its kinda back to the days when i had my Os.
fear of hearing them quarrel.
especially without my brothers around. =(
one left the house to live with his wife, and another need to work night shift.
what should i do alone? =(
was not feeling good for the whole damn day without knowing any reason.
and yet i had to face this situation all by myself right now!
hate this feeling. hate this kind of thing.
what should i do?
how to keep my smile going on?
all i can do is put the smile to cover the sorrow that i had contained.
all i hope is that other people can bring joy to me.
and not disappointment once again.
i had enough to tolerate.
i know its life. but how can life treat me this way?
just had no idea. no idea. how life is going to be like for me.
hope that i can sleep forever.
胆小鬼 抱着希望 可是有人会给我希望吗?
talking to someone.
then came across the "Law of Attraction"
haas. its not a movie.
its some kind of law.
went to reseach abit on it.
finding it somehow cool.
The Law of Attraction simply says that you attract into your life whatever you think about. Your dominant thoughts will find a way to manifest. But the Law of Attraction gives rise to some tough questions that don’t seem to have good answers. I would say, however, that these problems aren’t caused by the Law of Attraction itself but rather by the Law of Attraction as applied to objective reality.
Subjective reality is a belief system in which (1) there is only one consciousness, (2) you are that singular consciousness, and (3) everything and everyone in your reality is a projection of your thoughts.
then i came across this thingy..
So if you want to become an early riser (or just exert more control over your sleep patterns), then try this: Go to bed only when you’re too sleepy to stay up, and get up at a fixed time every morning.
sounds cool. haas.
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/04/self-acceptance-vs-personal-growth/
thats the link. zzz
lazy to read it for now. find it cool.
what should i do?
what should i do??
i just had no answer, its wrong.
when i cant come up with an answer also wrong.
whatever i do also wrong.
might as well keep quiet.
"maybe i should not ask u anything le"
thanks for saying that. really! THANKS alot!!
or maybe i should not have exist.
if i do not exist, u wont felt this way right?
what i do now, all to you is nothing.
i had been trying to answer you.
but that is all i get from you.
i'm really sorry if i never give u what u want or what u expected.
i really dont know what to say.
im speechless. TOTALLY SPEECHLESS.
hate this fucking feeling!!
feeling bored.
so got myself here to update my blogg.
shoulders are damn aching.
couldn't shoot well today, so i took half-day off. =X
haas. but i trained my form.
quite some time since i had form training.
but tragic happens, my arm like got tumor cause kena hit few times. =/
but nvm. its okie. it will go off de.
hmm.. then today was quite entertaining.
as there are people who have muscles aching, therefore can't laugh too hard.
but its quite hard lar. cause i will go and disturb them. =P
quite fun, cause i dint have my turn yet. wahahaha XD
me with munchy donut cap. =Plove this pic. haas. its
ORANGE!
just feel natural when looking at this picture. =X
kies lar. nth to update.
feeling empty too. =(
terrible day.
things start to get bad.
what had i been doing?
i wonder what i had been doing..
things had changed so much.
happy times we spent together become terrible memories in the future.
felt useless.
being such a person, should i live happily?
do i worth to be happy?
find myself worthless.
cant do anything right. cant do anything that makes a person happy.
cant get a conversation going on. cant control my stupid temper.
cant control my mood swings. cant get over the past.
im such a person. so if you dont want to get hurt by me, dont involved with me.
cause i such a person that hurts people, cause misery to people. =(
i am not a person that would bring people happiness.
my life is in a mess. i would just make the other person life miserable.
i want to help people. but i end up making life worse for them.
maybe im not worth anyone. not vice-versa.
people(2) who were close to me, went through a lot with me could lied to me so easily.
could i trust people once again? do i have the confidence to believe that, that kind of matter wont happen to me again?
but I'm trying. but no 1 sees that I'm trying. =(
i dont know what to feel. dont know how to react.
each time when i think i find myself happy, things happened.
cant i find happiness? do i not deserve it? T.T
useless me. =(
