what is this?
people hurting me
me making people suffer
what is this?
i asked people..
am i stupid?
am i so easy cheated?
i asked myself...
do i deserve all these shit that hurts me?
trust u all?
i did..and what happened?!
misused of trust.
how?! am i going to stand up once again
being pushed down by the person i loved most.
if i am important to u all, why hurt me like that?
i told u, u all like the whole world to me.
i tell u..right now my world seems to be collapsing.
but who can i turn to?
theres 1 person who wants to rely on me..!!!!
i dont even have the strength to go back once again.
how can i let u rely on me?
WARY.....
leaving u all is a torment.
but right now is also a torment to me.
tears are falling..my heart aches alot..alot really alot alot...
but do u all understand what i am going through?
u all might think things are not so serious ba.
but it is to me.
thanks ivan...for listening to me..and talking to me..
thanks xiong...for talking to me..
winnie...u never did wrong by telling me all those things.
if u dont, things might be much worse for me.
and im sorry...i would not be able to let u lean on for now..
dont ask me how long will it be.
and sorry..to upset u and stuff...
i dont know how to face hubby...should i still say hubby? sobs
i dont know what to call..or say....tears nv stop flowing down...
when is the pain going to stop? how to make it stop?
how to not get hurt? im tired of getting hurt..really tired...
should i exist? can i disappear with all those pains?
are u all important to me still?
why do i still hurt so much when i think of u all?
why? why? why? im tired of crying..dont want to cry...but tears keep flowing...
i want to hate. but i cant bear to hate...
how can u all bear to hurt me like that? =(( really sad.... =((
