read someone's personal message
wonder if its refering to me
since you dont bother to say, then i dont bother to ask
that person seems to have tingling feeling to give me up.
why do u think everything is easy to say?
i just need some space on my own
a space of my own.
i lost myself
which is the worse scenario ever!!
did u ever realise that all these while, its not angelynn?
i had been trying to fight my ownself. but does anyone knows?
when im joking, laughing, smiling, do u all really think im happy?
i dont even know the answer to that alright?
sometimes telling u stuff, doesnt always make things better.
sometimes it would just make things worse
so i chose to keep quiet.
and when i does that, things starts to happen.
terrible things start to happen.
i hate it. (T.T)
either way it just makes things weird.
im tired of these.
no longer wish to talk.
no longer want to.
forgotten how to be happy, how to enjoy myself, forgotten how i care about others before myself
I HAD FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT IT!!
do any1 of u realize that?
i doubt so.
all i felt right now is fear, insecurity, lost of trust, unhappy
u had deleted the sentence away when i came online.
thats what u really felt right?
if so, i really dont know what to say.
this whole day, i thought through.
why sometimes i sms someone and why they dont reply me back.
maybe there is really nothing that we could talk about.
so everything just stopped.
or they are just not interested to talk to me.
so i comforted myself with that reason.
thinking since we got nothing to talk about, then why sms them.
i shall stop sms-ing people.
i should stop that habit.
it had become a nuisance instead of caring.
slowly, finding reasons to comfort myself.
to solve the stupid things that make myself feel worse.
during this time, doubt anyone would talk to me.
so, i think during this time, think about whether i will miss them.
or will i slowly forget about them.
hate me if you want. give up on me if you want.
i wont blame you, cause this is my choice.
