been trying to take a nap
not going out cause dont feel like going out
i cant sleep when i want
i hate the feeling of doubting people or even myself
it feels like i dont trust anyone
i dont want things to happen again
things like im being betrayed
i fear of being hidden in the dark, not knowing anything
i dont want anyone to hide anything from me
cause it just seems i cant be trusted or what
but then, there are some stuff that cant be said out
how to prevent one from lying to you?
can you even prevent that...
i cant prevent that, thats why i fear
my friend found my low self-confidence disturbing
maybe so.
i just look at the bad side.
but i dont feel happy
i want to get myself prepared for the worse for everything
but i am not happy.
i always think of the consequences of everything i do.
the worse scenario of everything.
how do i feel when i first came to RP?
how do i feel when im in year 1 sem 1?
can i get the feeling back again?
cause i felt happier during that time
when everyone is laughing
no 1 is left out, everyone is enjoying themselves
fate.....destiny......
no idea what are they.
