another day that end up with uncomfortable feelings.
why does this have to happen?
what is going on with me?!
sometimes i wished i would disappear.
run away from everything but i know it wont work.
"nvm, forget it"
these words would only make me think that i dont understand you.
which makes me feel irritated. frustrated.
sarcastic, thought of giving up, dont bother anymore, irritated, frustrated.
you made me think that you felt that way.
sorry if i misinterpreted the way that you felt.
maybe i really do not understand u afterall.
how to make u believe me when i say nth?
i told you before why i chose not to say.
and i supposed you understand it.
can you trust me?
can u believe me?
have faith in me?
i dont want you to be worrying about me anymore.
after u got 2 jobs, and seems tired all the time.
its like im adding on to your burden.
sometimes even if im getting stronger, there are times when i felt down.
i cant make myself 24/7 happy all the time when im with you all.
i cant promise u that. cause i know sometimes i need time alone to cool down from everything.
i dont know what to say when u asked me what happen
and i can say, dont force me. i might become a monster.
*mind in a whirl*
no reason.
[monster incoming] =(
