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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

wahhaa!! long time nv update le wor!!
Smilex!!!
shall post all those photos!!
since i got nothing to do now~~

written @ 4:17:00 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007

im FUCKING PISSED!!!!
FUCKING DISAPPOINTED!!!
give u time for u to run away?!
STOP FUCKING GIVE ME BULLSHIT!!!
giving u time?!
i will give u time!!!
for u to run away?!
bullshit!!!
what happen to all those things i said in the morning! afternn?!
its fucking useless to u is it?
for u to run away!!
tell u what?!
im crying at this fucking moment!!
run away?!
u want to run away?!
if u want to do that!!
i tell u something
im going to leave u!!
leave dory too!!
leave yang too!!
leave everyone!!!!
im freaking pissed at how u run away from things!!!
u asked me what to do in the afternn
i told u....i answered u...
u asked me how to solve?
i answered u....
but now u freaking want to run away!!!!
stop bullshitting lar!!!
after i told u all those, u said give u time
okie!!!! I GIVE!!!!
NOW I ASKED U HOW LONG YOU WOULD NEED
U SAID UNTIL U COULD RUN AWAY FROM IT!!!
WTF I SAY FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!!!

or maybe i should just shut my mouth
seriously!!!

written @ 12:45:00 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

BOOM!!!
yeaps. Just went boom this morning.
had no idea how drastic it was, face was black when i entered the class
slowly understood the problem statement.
its that relief boring guy again =_=
dread to come to his lesson. Rowena!!! come back!!!!
haas!!
but today problem statement is easy lar~
about depreciation~ wahaha..
lucky learn before woohoo~
the rest like busy loe so nv go ka jiao them
ownself find things to do~ =/
and my stomach is killing me!!!
sobs.
then ah boon just now kana "rape"
haas. was forced to cut his fingernails by xiao hui and apple.
wahaha..cant act cute liao~~
lolx!! but the fingernails to me is still long~

yesterday, had a long long talk with hubby!
it was nice~ the feeling of talking everything, under the moon
joking about everything just the 2 of us.
thanks hubby~ ^_^

written @ 1:16:00 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

back to post
this morning went to see doctor for check up
doesnt seems right, gotta go hospital for a throughout checkup
gotta waste money again which costs more than the private doctor consultation's fee
having a hard time when coming to school
it just sucks when it keeps giving you aches

dint know that i had virus~~~~
woo~~~~
forget it man.
doesnt make a diff whether i say it or not
so why bother to say

no more reason for me to say out things
no more secure to say out things
no more confidence to say out things
so i'm not saying out things
cause there is no difference anymore

written @ 1:14:00 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

yippee!!
its just another 9 hours to my BIRTHDAY!!!
got 3 sms wishing me happy birthday in advance liao =_=
haas thanks anyways!! love you!! muacks!
yesterday i did stunt
ate the sweet that had laxative effect if consumed too much!
i dint know that loe
then during UT, stomach was having war
feeling damn weird, after UT checked the box then see have that effect
no wonder =_=!!
then this morning then have diarrhea
tired sia somemore yesterday night never eat dinner
T_T poor me!
then walked out of house, called dory to wake up
she sure damn long loe =x
did her RJ in the morning before going to bath
faint~ then i reached liao she then leaving her house
nvm lar got come can liao..lolx!!
but she looked damn tired =/
hope shes okie~~
wee!!! my uncle bought me cake!!! my family had stopped giving me cakes when i was sec 3!!
until last year my dear friends bought me a cake, and this year i have cake again!! wahaha!!
im so contented!!
read my friends blog, saying something that if dont like something then dont like lar
what for make myself suffer just to dislike something i dont like.
might as well dont bother by it
just amazed by her simple thinking
it just completely stopped all my complex thoughts
been long that i had met her
heard that she is still having her BBall training
shall find someday go and pop up at her training place and give her a shock!
Hees evil me!! XD
something got into me in the afternn
hopefully its fine, trying to be normal
as normal as possible
forget about that!!!!
it would just kill me before i get to enjoy myself today!
so..nar...!!
AND!! im not going to come home tonight!!!
bed... not gonna lie on you tonight...monkiie..not gonna hug u tonight~
dolphins..not gonna look at you till i fall aslp~ wahaha...im crazy~~!!
cya~~!!

written @ 3:16:00 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

There’s star up in the sky tonight
But do not have the chance to walk under the sky back home taking the long way
Cause it’s too late le, 11 plus still on the bus back to tampanies
Could imagine what time I would reach home if it takes me 45 mins to walk back home by the long way
And there’s definitely something wrong with me!!
Just have no idea why so don’t bother asking me what’s wrong with me
I would just stone there and stare at the blank space or wherever I’m facing
*smack own face*
Wake up!!!!
I can’t be emo back again!!
I just found my smile, my laughter!!
I just can’t lose it so easily!!!
But yeah, I still stone just now thinking how to continue typing
Maybe due to my own blurness, I slept last night WITH my contact lenses ON!!!
That’s the 2^nd time!!
SHIT!! I should just forget about wearing contacts if I forgotten the next time!
Now my left eye is still red! Been red for the whole day!
That’s a sad thing to say, and dint mention it to my family
For fear that they would just nag at me, and forbid me to wear them again
Well, I should be more careful then if I still want my eye
Was having trouble sleeping last night, stomach is killing me!
Really wished to die at that moment!
Doc told mum to ask me to go down for a check up
Hmm..The last time for check up was a long time ago, aint it?
But wait till I have the time
Unwilling to go, reluctant to go down for some reasons
Doc Lee, wait for me then! Haas!
For today’s problem statement, It was quite easy!
Haas! Think I could get a A? lolx!
DREAM ON!! Maybe a B ba
Was trying to do the worksheet, managed to do most of it
Just unable to answer the last few questions, but I think the excel explained it all.
Today’s session is the fastest! 2 pm start presentation and ends at 3pm!
Just an hour of presentation and last week quiz!
So zai!
Then classmates all jio-ing to go club tonight
But I dint go, cause I still need to go back school tomorrow for training
Dint want to tired myself out ++ my parents think will nag at me ba
They went to St. James there, but no idea where they went
Guess next time then go with them ba
They are regulars of clubbers =x
After class, wait in class for yang and dory
They had UT, dory is K-O
No idea for yang
Haas! Guess its okie ba =/ who knows?
Then went to library finding a good spot to screen movie
Went to the student career there and did our RJ
My RJ question is a dumb 1!!!
“how does Statistic helps you in your everyday life?”
Freaking hell!! Just go bang wall lar!! Keep asking these kinds of questions!!!
No sian I also sian lar!!
Then I just bullshit and crap through the damn RJ
While trying to do my RJ, that idiot yang did something stupid!
He called my hp, when hes freaking in front of me! =_=
Then I just put on loudspeaker, and he find it amusing as he could hear his voice echoed
Lolx!! Dumb sia! Then dory came back from buying food from the galaire café
We did the same thing to show her, and dory don’t find it amusing
Which killed the fun =x lolx..no lar
Then just played around again, the both of them nia
Haas, I just sit there and laughed or rather stone once in a while
Lolx! Finished the RJ, went to the corner to watch movie, but in the end
Watching supernatural and some idiot just dozed off
After watching, both of them continued playing
Tickling each other and stuff just to entertain themselves
And I kena dragged in, smacked my whole hand on the shelve
Tagged team by both of them, couldn’t breathe at that time of the moment
So scared I would really died of tickling and was strangled by some idiot
Then tagged team with yang to tickle dory, but in the end its me getting hurt!!!!
T_T was kena knock on the chin, and hit on the face by yang’s knee
That’s so sad lar!! Tickle people then own self kena hurt
Pathetic, and that’s when I found out that how weak I am
Haas! Pathetic fellow, who doesn’t realize that she is so weak up to this moment
Looking at other people who are so afraid of being weak whom are actually stronger than myself
And not knowing how weak I am myself
Just realized how stupid I am
I just know how to find others when I had problems
I’m just a spoiled, pampered brat!!
And is such a weak brat!
Here myself criticizing myself right in the middle of the night!
Felt dumb!
I just felt like saying what I want to say
No reason, no intention of asking people to ask me what happen
Oh ya!! And that freaking idiot bloody F***ing bastard that keep calling my phone
I finally picked up!! And I freaking called that bastard not to call this number again!!
Felt relieved!!! And hes freaking BAGALAH!!! I don’t care whether I get criticized after this post or
what
I just freaking irritated by how he called and hanged up after 2 rings!! Since SUNDAY!!
Its had been 3 days!!! Irritating me all along!!

Finding my laughter, my smile and most important my star back!

written @ 1:36:00 AM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

another day of walking under the dark sky with bright moon shining down
stars are blinking as if they were asking me whats wrong with me
another kind of mood walking under the starlight
are we losing faith in each other?
wheres our chemistry?
there seems to be a wall in between us how should we break down this wall?
i wonder is it me
me causing all these boundaries?
"sorry" is the word that we don't wish to hear from each other
its a FORBIDDEN word for us okie?
sometimes when i got upset by you, i want you to cheer me up
i may act childish, but that is what i am
thats how i want things to be
but things might not go as how i want them to be
sometimes i just loathe myself for being so greedy
for wanting this and that
and yet i asked myself, why can't i have those?
this is when i started to hate myself
cause i know this is not right for me to do so
but i yearn to do so
i loathe myself for not being contented with what i have
and yet asking for more
taking things for granted
who am i becoming?
i am so afraid of myself
so loathe myself
what am i becoming?
terrified of myself

written @ 11:34:00 PM

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