wHooOpPpeee!!~
competition is finally over!
happy and sad at the same time
sad that im unable to do what i promised
that is to win a medal for the seniors
as this indoor com will be the last com for most of the seniors
and also to prove myself that all those efforts that i made is worth it
but somehow i dint do that
i panicked throughout the round 1
which is so terrible that i cant believe what i am doing
it feels like its the first time that im shooting
i dont know how to anchor, hold and pull anymore
it just feel so strange
after the break, i know that i dont have chance to get a medal
i lost the chance for this com
failed to prove myself to the rest
people said i had improved alot
so i supposed that im too rush to prove myself thats why i had such disappointment
and i started to lose confidence in myself
我会为了忘你而恨你吗？
i hope that i wont hate you just to forget you
please forgive me if sometimes i dont bother much about you
rather pretend that i could not hear you
i had no idea if i had anymore feelings for you
it had become a mystery to myself too
thoughts coming through but i cant seem to tell any1
its like i wanted to say out but i had no voice
and when i had voice there is no 1 there to listen
it just fades away
no longer important nor urgent
theres quite abit of things on my mind
not ready to tell anyone
nor had any idea want to tell any1
cant bring myself to do that
haix
mind is in a whirl
pour me with your care and concern
its enough for just that ^^
thanks a lot too
