there is training today.
first day of the week. Monday.
maybe planning to do something tmr.
but i wanted to go to beach. sudden urge to go there.
maybe just go there emo awhile.
see how tmr goes.
people are acting weird...
haix. how can i cheer them up?
maybe its their problem ba.
cant make it my problems.
cause i had my own. i had to solved mine before i can help others.
hmm...so i shall solve my problems first.
my parents are coming back.
so think will stop quarreling with my bro for the moment.
and i suppose i would have more freedom.
i said once. when im ready i would tell u.
but i dont know when will it be.
somethings happened.
i want a shoulder to lean on....
whose shoulder could let me lean on?
i really wished to cry.
do i have no rights at all?
maybe i dont have any.
i feel sad. the pain is there.
whatever i do. the pain still lingers there.
but do u know?
have u ever thought about what i think about the things u did?
maybe im not important at all ba.
have you ever appreciated me?
i really wonder. i felt really hopeless when i cant help u.
i approached u but u just leave me hanging there.
not pushing me away nor giving me a change to help u.
what do u want me to do?
all the things i did. was meant nth to u.
maybe thats the conclusion i can get.
*12* they are for u... nobody would ever knows what they meant.
the thing i gave u. is here with me. u had forgotten all about it.
im back to the space i had to myself. Only me.
no one could hurt me then...
i had this thinking. "since i want people to be happy. why not i disappear?
people might be happy without me"
