im feeling terrible.
you asked me if im alright.
im not alright. but i dont have the courage to tell u that im not okie.
things had already happen till like this.
maybe its my fault. that i brought this up upon myself.
no. not only myself. but to you too.
all these nonsensical thoughts just came up.
you deprived yourself from that chance.
and you asked me to help you.
have you ever thought of my feelings?
the feeling of hurting you.
Do you know that i dont wish to see you hurt like you dont wish to see me hurt.
and your asking me to help u.
how funny is it.
different kind of thoughts just came up randomly.
its like breaking a heart. and then you came to me and say sorry.
and tried to piece it back.
stop saying sorry. it cant make the cracks go away or disappear.
im supposed to pretend nothing happen.
but i couldnt.
there are too many thoughts and thinkings in my mind.
for once. i wished i never know anyone.
people are selfish dont they?
you could say that im very selfish.
as i just want myself to be happy.
yesterday night is a torment for me.
real torment.
i dont even know how to face this torment.
as its too much for me to take.
all those talking make no sense to me after i reviewed them.
as no 1 is listening.
who am i talking to? myself?
of course it makes no sense if no 1 is listening.
lost trust. almost lost everything.
i dont know how to trust people once more.
i had no 1 to talk to.
i fell down again.
will i stand up this time?
who knows.....
deeply hurt.
