im holding out my hand.
just for u to reach out.
not only is there my hand. there are other hands too.
but found that u chose the other hand.
^^ im glad.
but at the same time i felt envious.
mixed feeling is what i can say.
i cant say out what i wanted to.
like what he did. say out that hes envious. jealous.
however, that is not going to stay long in my mind.
cause my motive is to help u.
even if i loses u.
im prepared. mentally. physically.
i dont care anymore.
guess u wont see this anyways.
sooner or later. hope u will understand why we did this.
not because we need to.
but its because we want to.
i will give u time. all the time that u want.
just dont push us away.
this is just for you. ONLY you.
smsed kaki. mood is totally down.
had slight fever yesterday. haix
recovered today. then sort of go out.
he cant meet me. but he accompanied me. spiritually.
haas. thanks. u seems to have no complaints.
but i know sometimes u get enough of my nonsense right?
haas. really grateful that u tolerated that. and keep things low. even if u dont like it.
have no idea where we heading to. seems to stuck there.
but will have a way out. ^^ have confidence in you.
