did i done something i shant do today?
would i regret if i nv did it today?
i dont know what to say.
it seems different to me.
okie. this is the question i asked.
am i really helping or just being useless.
they said in some way, im helping.
but i felt useless, no..rather hopeless.
i dont feel any thing that helps.
i rather feel more of me causing the uneasiness.
the feeling just came.
had been feeling this all along.
they knew it. they said i helped.
but i just. had no control over my emotions.
u named it, i had it.
anger, useless, jealous , happy, sad?
i had.
so what if i had?
its useless. meaningless.
these feelings are bottled within me.
ITS DIFFERENT!!
i kept telling myself that.
but it doesnt helps.
i just felt stupid.
ridiculously stupid.
serious. im of no help to anyone.
kaki lost his phone.
he called to tell me that.
suprised that he memorized my number.
gotta survived through all these days without his sms company.
all these that i had done.
are u touched?
or its just something that u dont even bother?
never mind. it doesnt matter that much anyways.
