Haix..updating my blog again..!! long time no cee yar..? having depression on fridae..den had lao gong to tok mi over..no idea if she felt troubled or wad…haix..dun reali wana trouble anibodi loe..but I reali niid sum1 to tok to..haha..poor lao gong..becum my victim..yesterdae told my mum about wad is my schedule from mon to fri.. n guess wad she sae..wow..!! so busi ar..??! I was lik……..i tryin to mak myself busi okie..?! to stop myself from tinkin too much..!! get awae frm all dose stupid tots lik m I despise by my classmates..hu hates mi…soo on….im stupid tinkin about all dese…don’t i..? haix..no choice…reali got notink to do…den I told her about wad m I gona do durin my bdae n on de 16…I jux sae my fren sae lets drink vodka..den she was like NO..!! haix…-_-“ another problem..! I mean..im already 18 dis year…I can mak my own decisions..! its my life dat I wana go through..!! if euu wana mak decisions fer euur children den do it by euurself wid my bros or sum toys..! omG..!! reali wished to sae that to my parents..!! but I jux couldn’t bring myself to sae that to dem…reali troublesome…how can I convince dem dat im safe by myself..?? im able to go to sch myself…! Okie..! haix…reali wana feel free..although they seems to giv mi freedom though but its lik since long ago euu should gib mi dis kind of freedom..!! haix..reali wana freedom so much..i dun wana let dem tink im rebellious or wadeva so..but im tryin so hard to fit into deir image of ‘ah gurl’ which I tink seriously…has no freedom…which is a stupid gurl dat jux follow de instructions of deir parents.. I mean a lot of frens are veri veri(seriously VERI) rebellious..dey can do mani ridiculous stuff..!! lik runnin awae frm home…yar…dey should be glad dat I didn’t do all dese actions…or should I sae…I couldn’t..? mayb its mi hu couldn’t leave my hm.. my parents are worried about mi…but haix..!! I wana dem to trust mi dat I would be fine..euu noe..? even sum1 younger den mi has so much freedom den mi..not to even mention pep same age as mie…haix…im goin crazie…dey are always sayin de differences between gurls and guys..always comparing mi and my bros together…[especially when dey they tink dat the guys are able to do dat n gurls cant..!!] haix..how m I gona change dat tinkin from deir mindset..!!] im goin crazie..!!! help..!! sumtimes felt neglected...sumtimes felt lonely....mayb when ones depressed tinks alwaes bcum sad tinks to dem...jux lik wadeva tinks that happen to mi rite now...
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